I’ve just looked in the mirror

and things are looking so much clearer

all of nothing is my bet

My shadow is starting to sweat

save this time and place

for life is such a long race

If I just keep my pace

I will finish with grace

Fish flew into my face

Water is dripping down my legs

Hair is sticking to my head

All I’m thinking is about my bed

But I must be fed

the clock strikes ten o’clock

a flock of geese land smoothly on the glass water

Its starting to get hotter

flames lick my toes

I jump and scream

a light beam shoots down

making a large hole in that ground

I climb in and find a little puppy hound

He barks and disappears

large pears grow out of my ears

I pick them with fear

eat one and poison leaks out

I’ve could of cried right at that instant

but im happy happy happy

happily insane

I’ve never felt this much freedom

All my life i have been in prison

sitting in a very long timeout

to think of what i did

but now im happy happy happy

happily insane

I wear armor that you can’t see

No one of any nature can get past it

You could say that it doesnt exist

because you can’t see it

But can you see the wind?

Its that invisible line that no one can cross

I’ve stepped over

and have no chance of returning

because I’m happy happy happy

happily insane

I’m better off this way

playing dead is an easy act

but playing insane is much more fun

It makes life more deceitful

I can stay happy happy happy

happily insane forever

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I’ve been out of touch for over a year

Which isn’t unusual

You have faded with time

lives have changed

Emotional  eating in response

I’ve pointed this out but

nothing has changed

A dedicated person takes resentment without feeling anything

Slacking off in productivity

Concrete evidence of everything your doing

Emphasize your efficiency

Hold your head up high

Keep your eyes looking ahead

In the past are burning images

of nothing that you can get back

No worries

Starting fresh is what everyone looks for

But don’t think its all going to be trouble free

because nothing is free

and nothing is safe from your mind

My thoughts slip past the guards at the door

and blackness has clouded my mind

I can only think of

one thing that is not helpful

So lets restart AGAIN

Clean, fresh, and smelling of goodness wafted over my conscience

Oh hey that was fun

but the party is over now

Everything is closing in on me

Flowers are sprouting between my toes

My hair is filled with hummingbirds

Bees are flying in and out of my ear, constructing a new hive

I’m walking around in the fresh moss that reaches out to cover the ground floor

I see a light shining through the trees

Even though i entered this strange place at nightfall

My sore feet drag me to the light

Just as a moth leads itself to a flame

As i continue to make my way to the light source

Tiny creatures start coming through the moss soaked ground

They are all orderly and form in a perfect line, headed for the light

I’m almost there then

The world goes black

My body feels very light

fingertips are glowing with a luminescent light

Nothing is around me, i cant feel anything

I open my eyes

and find my self sitting on a throne on top of a very large cliff

I look around the area its so beautiful

very nice looking trees and such everywhere

Rubies and gems are encrusted in my skin

I look down and theres a chain attach to my foot it leads to a large rock

I’m a prisoner sitting on a throne

I realize that i will be here forever

To watch things change

I wish i had some sunglasses

the sun is shining right in my face

Did you know that my eyes change color from green to blue to gray? Did you know that clouds fly higher during the day than at nighttime? Did you know I hate the color yellow? Did you know a person weighing 150 pounds on Earth would weigh two tons on the Sun? Did you know that I dislike country music? Did you know that the sky is blue because it reflects off the ocean? Did you know that I don’t want to become an old person? Did you know that I want to swim with sharks? Did you know that people who drink coffee are less likely to commit suicide than people who don’t? Did you know that I wish we didn’t have technology? Did you know I would give up all my processions to make the Earth healthier? Did you know that the collecting of beer coasters is called tegestology? Did you know that in Oregon it’s illegal to use canned corn as fishing bait? Did you know that in Myrtle Creek its illegal to box a kangaroo? Did you know Crater Lake is the deepest lake in the world?

Did you know i ran out of facts?

Step 1 : Make pizza dough- You measure 14 pounds of water that is 95 degrees Fahrenheit. Pour the water into the mixer and add the flour. The mixer will mix the dough for 10 minutes and then its times to cut and weigh the dough into proper proportions.  Large pizza’s balls are 19 oz, Mediums are 12 oz, and smalls are 8 oz.

Step 2: Pan the dough into cooking pans. You send the dough through a sheeter. The sheeter flattens out the dough so it fits perfectly into the pan.

Step 3: Let the Panned dough proof for 45 minutes.

Step 4: Add ready panned dough into make line.

Step 5: When you get an order for a pizza you take a panned dough and dock the dough. A docker is a roller with little spikes on it to make little holes in the dough so it doesn’t create  bubbles throughout the pizza when its cooking in the oven.

Step 6: Sauce the panned dough, Place a ring around the pan and sauce the dough, leaving a quarter of an inch for the crust. Fill the necessary amount of mozzarella cheese and spread it evenly around the pizza.

Step 7: Add necessary toppings the customer requested.

Step 8: Place pizza in the oven, it will take 6 minutes to cook.

Step 9:  Cut and box the pizza.

Step 10: Serve to customer.

WOOOOHOOOOOOOO

Here is something you can’t understand

you will never understand it

you have no inkling of the ideas that flow through

this head

i will not grant you access

Nor give you permission

Here is something you can’t understand

You don’t know what i think

Never will you be able to

So stop your crying

and let’s move on

to the next phase

You are self- centered and

intolerable

It makes me want to pull out of my hair

Because you can’t even try to understand me

So let’s improve that part of you

Let’s ripe out all you damaged goods

and put something back in that will give

you a better picture of the life that you have

Everything will be beautiful

Thing’s will mesh together

you won’t even know how they got that way

It’s just so simple

That’s the thing you can’t understand

simplicity.

Burst through the door

Your loudness makes me want to cry

overwhelming tingling wells up in my abdomen

Until your gone i will feel like this

Your presence makes things chaotic

I cant handle it anymore

I need to get out of here

Get the group back together and lets leave

We were happy together

without your annoyance

I feel relief as soon and i step out of that

Hell
My mood improves with the sound of your voice

getting further away

All i wanted was to be calm

and enjoy myself

i lost that and now

I’ve found it again